Sigh....
It's hard to write this.
Partly because I feel guilt because of some financial choices that my husband and I have made that don't allow us to do this.
But I want to homeschool.
We have 3 kids right now ages 7, 5 and 18 months. We would love to have more...
I really just want to be able to allow them a learning experience that they can't get at a public school. One based on their personal goals, wants and interests. One that I can monitor to ensure that Biblical principles are being taught as my husband and I want them to be taught.
Our public schol is amazing by the way. No real complaints with that, it's a small school, very family oriented, but it's just not the same.
So what's the problem??
Money. That's the problem
. Unfortunatley while going to school ( I have 2 Masters Degrees) and my husband has a Bachelor's we racked up some serious student loan debt....
We also have a home.
We live on land that is absolutley beautiful and it's right down the small dirt road from my parents. It gives the kids 3 ponds, a huge stream and numerous other places to explore the outdoors. It also gives us the ability to have an orchard, gardening spots, chickens, a well etc. It's perfect. But the mortgage has to be paid. We don't have Cable, or a homephone, we try to live frugally. It's just frustrating for me.
At this time I make more money that my husband. I do love my job but would quit in a heartbeat if I knew we could afford it. We just seem to be in a pickle...
Right now we are praying and seeking guidance. We also have been working feverishly to pay off all of our debt, but even being intense it could be at last 6 years. My oldest would be 13 by then, my youngest would only be in 1st grade or so, so I could still homeschool. My husband is also exploring other employment options that may allow him to make more money. But the job market right now....
I just feel bad about our decisions we made regarding loans and our mortgage. Our house isn't a mansion by any means, it's very modest, and especailly with 5 people living in it, it isn't large, but we probably could have done things differently to build a smaller home and had less of a mortgage payment....
So a warning to all of you out there wanting to stay at home and homeschool, PLAN for it NOW. Get your financies in order, cash flow college if you want to go.
Don't let a cloud of debt ruin your life goals...
If you are in a position similiar to mine, please don't give up. If you have a goal, a dream like this please know that you can work to pay it off and come out on the other side , in the sunshine. Don't give up!
Sorry for the downer of a post, I don't want to come off as complaining, as I am truly blessed.
I am grateful for my job, and my beautiful children and I am thankful we live in a great school
district.
Happy Homesteading.....
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